11:09 p.m.

Anime Night - new anime! Watched eps. 1-2 of Vampire Princess Miyu, ep. 2 of Weiß Kreuz, and eps. 1-2 of Inuyasha. Miyu isn't bad, WK continued the cheese *but there was Aya!!*, and I'm just not interested in Inuyasha. Oh well. ^_^ My manga is coming!!

Tomorrow's the Science Bowl. I have to be at the high school at 7:30 a.m. On a Saturday. x_X;;; Oh well. ^_^ Teacher says we get free stuff. Free stuff = good. ^_____^

Did I mention that my manga's coming? ^_~

peat moss? one nosebleed

03:47 p.m.

Erin tells me that the HanaKimi manga should be on the way. This makes me happy, because it's the best thing I've heard all day. I'm feeling kinda depressed right now. The prospect of college is overwhelming me, and I'm beginning to hate programming class with a passion. I never liked graphics, and all this use of graphics now is just really starting to get to me.

I'm just feeling blah.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

07:45 p.m.

I'm stressed out. I'm beginning to hate this machine. I have writer's block. My hair sucks. The swimming pool sucks. I'm tired. My eyes hurt. I have homework. I don't want to get up early tomorrow. My room is messy. My lightbulb burned out. I'm burned out. I wish I could absorb information faster. My head hurts. I hate physics. I wanna sleep.

"All stressed out and no one to strangle."

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

04:40 p.m.

Savage bunny. o_O;;;;;

peat moss? no nosebleeds

04:36 p.m.

And Erin has dubbed me "Nigaki"! ^o^ Nigai (bitter) + gaki (brat) = Nigaki!! ^_^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

03:59 p.m.

Got my pencilboards today! ^_______^ Two Weiß Kreuz and one Saiyuki! *_* All three are double-sided, so that's even cooler. ^_^ Happy day...

I sat in on the pit rehearsal for musical after school today. My God, they suck. Positively suck. And I was told the music was hard. Good Lord, that's easy stuff! I could have sightread most of the music with a good degree of accuracy. The electric bass player was like, "We need you! Join us!" Meanwhile, I'm wondering how much good I'll do. I don't mean to be conceited, but I think I'm better than most of the players there, and I wonder how much good I can possible do. They can't tune their intruments, they don't know their music, they can barely play, for Pete's sake! And the director is verbally abusive. >_< Since I have to stay after school tomorrow anyway, I think I'll see if I can catch the director before practice starts to talk to him. Maybe I'll join. Maybe.

Dangit, I want my HanaKimi manga. >_<

OOOHHH!! I was called a bitter twelve-year-old!! *rofl* A friend was telling me about these two senior boys that rode her bus. Apparently, my name came up (don't ask how; it's a long story), and they were like "She's like this bitter middle-schooler who's smarter than we are! She tears people apart!" As the story was being related to me, I was laughing and mentally oro-ing... I don't remember ripping people up. O_O; Oh well. ^_^ It was a wonderful compliment. ^_^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

08:52 p.m.

Legato in an apron! XD

peat moss? no nosebleeds

08:17 p.m.

Here's a cookie for everyone! ^_^ The grey background is the underside of my scanner's lid, and the white creases are from the cellophane that I covered the scanner bed with. ^_^ Enjoy!!

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

05:53 p.m.

>_< College apps... I really need to get my SAT scores up. >_< And I need to take SAT IIs.

Kathleen was kind enough to lend me a Trigun doujinshi she bought... I'm very much furigana+dictionary dependent, and doujinishi generally don't have furigana, so... ^_^ Oh well. I recognized a few kanji. ^_^ "Watashi", "boku", and "ima" are the ones that come to mind. Right now, my impression of it is something like, "Plot? What plot?" I've seen scans from this particular doujinshi before... but I definitely have NOT seen Legato in an apron with big pretty curly letters that say "WELCOME" down the front! XD

Kathleen also got the Weiß Kreuz OVA artbook Verbrechen & Strafe *DROOL!!* and one of the three Kenshin anime artbooks *_*. I'm going to steal them from her one of these days. *ebil* And I want pencilboards. I'm not sure what Kathleen was trying to say, but either she has my pencilboards at her house or Erin has them. Or she has one of them and Erin has the other three. I'm really not sure, but dammit, I want my stuff!! >_< Waaaaaaaaaahhh...

And I still have to scan those cookies. ^_^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

09:30 a.m.

Okay... so last night I decided that people needed a cookie, or five, so when I get home today, I'm going to scan a cookie. Or five. Chocolate chip, though! ^_^ I hope we have cellophane. >_>;;; My scanner won't be happy with me if I wreck it. >_<

And with some sleep, I now have something to say. ^_^

I think that everyone has a "first love". You can't escape that brush with love unchanged. Whether it changes you for the better or for the worse, well... I can't say anything about that. But it changes you, and you decide whether the experience made you better or worse. So. ^_^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

10:52 p.m.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

peat moss? no nosebleeds

10:29 p.m.

*blankly stares at monitor* *initiating flip-out sequence* *beep-beep-beep!* They broke up!! Ohmigod, they BROKE UP!!! ;_;

*calms down enough to type* I'm really saddened by this. In spite of everything, everyone... I believed in them. I believed in them... I still do. Dammit, I still do.

I didn't want this to happen. I didn't want to see this happen. Mother of God, I didn't want this to happen! Goddammit, I wanted a happy ending!!

I'm beginning to wonder if this wasn't ever 1 + 2, the different love... maybe it was really Setsuna + Sara, the impossible love... Until I get the details, though, I'll leave it at what I have here... I don't want to hurt anyone by making hasty judgments.

My pragmatic side is saying, "Sometimes, love just isn't enough," while my romantic side is screaming, "Love conquers all!!"

peat moss? one nosebleed

09:50 p.m.

Because I was bored and didn't want to study for physics, here's a little something to entertain you. You can get the original, Japanese-language scan or the translated, English-language one. Erin-sensei, I hope that my translation was acceptable.

Notes: Yes, that is Yuki holding the phone and looking dumbfounded/disgusted. Shuuichi has incredible lung capacity; after all, he is a singer.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

08:00 p.m.

I really should be studying... but I'm talking with Dan. Here are my notable quotes from that coversation, so far.

1. "[Denis]'s amusing, when those girls aren't trying to hump his leg."
   
2. "But in between making others' lives hell, I dispense somewhat helpful advice."
   
3. "Watch out!! I'm f***ing PSYCHO!!!"
   
4. "I like the fire... not the small bloody pieces."

peat moss? no nosebleeds

06:36 p.m.

Spent about 40 minutes to fix the hard-to-view logbody. I think it's much easier to see now.

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

05:04 p.m.

I think the new layout is done. I made some slight changes - see if you can find them. ^.^ Oh! And I have a name, now!

Now, if this damn opacity-thingy would do what I want it to, you'd be able to see the text better at the top... grr...

peat moss? no nosebleeds

11:10 p.m.

Yes, I know this is my eighth post today. Go away. >_< I like my bloggie.

I think the Angel Sanctuary layout is done... *phew!* I'll probably be tweaking the ALT and TITLE tags a bit more, though.

And Erin and Kathleen are home from Katsu Con!! *selfish little girl* I can't wait to see what Kathleen got me! ^__________^

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

02:39 p.m.

Dammit... I just noticed the spelling mistake I made on the Links section... sorry, Solar. >_< It's really ironic.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

02:20 p.m.

Changed the Angel Sanctuary layout; split it into 30 pieces. The page should load a bit differently, now.

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

12:53 p.m.

More work needed on the layout. I'm going to split the main image of Setsuna up into 20 or so pieces so it loads nicer. *sobs* All those pieces...

peat moss? no nosebleeds

12:44 p.m.

Oh, what the heck. I'll put up the preview now. Yes, I know that it's a graphical monstrosity and that it's hard to read the text at the top of the logbody, but I like it anyway! Also, I desperately need/want a name for this layout, so suggestions would be greatly appreciated.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

12:02 p.m.

The Angel Sanctuary layout is almost done; I'm in the final stages of completion. I'm still toying around with the major image a bit, and I need a name >_>;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; for it. I also have to create the Greymatter templates. >_<

I'll be posting a preview soon. I wanna get a second, a third, and possible a fourth opinion on it. ^_^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

01:22 a.m.

This Angel Sanctuary layout of mine... it'll be an absolute nightmare for people with slow modems and anything less than 1024 x 768 resolution... but dammit, it's looking good! >_< Wah...

peat moss? no nosebleeds

12:42 a.m.

Yoshi! After a few hours of work and one restart >_<, I now have the imaging all done. Now I need to create a look for the body of the log and work on colors. ^_^ So happy!

peat moss? no nosebleeds

09:41 p.m.

Just got back from Anna's going-away party for her friend Amanda. I'm sorry that she's losing a friend. But Zack & Paige and Dan & Shannon were so cute. ^o^

Erin and Kathleen are getting back from Katsu tomorrow. I'm happy for Kathryn. ^o^ But I'm also happy because I wanna see what Kathleen got me. ^.^

This school year has really taught me a lot about my feelings about love, especially the romantic kind. Just from all the stuff I've been exposed to... I've come to the conclusion that if it's really true, if there's something substantial and healthy there, then love can't be wrong. Maybe God doesn't think so, maybe society doesn't think so, but show me that you two really love each other, and I'll defend your right to be together with everything I've got. I know that it sounds pretentious and stupid, but that's what I think. I just want you guys to know that I support you all the way. I know that people didn't or wouldn't think the same way as I do, but I don't care. Your relationship means a lot to me. So let them bring it on. I'm ready. ^_~

peat moss? no nosebleeds

05:08 p.m.

Working on a new layout. It's Setsuna from Angel Sanctuary. More than ever, I'm feeling my lack of knowledge about art and design. >_< Gah. I'll do my best anyway.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

07:06 p.m.

Just installed the GIMP, and now I'm playing with it. So far, so good. ^_^ Hopefully, this will help my image-editing software woes.

peat moss? one nosebleed

06:25 p.m.

Downloaded 7.61 MB worth of color Angel Sanctuary pictures. Huge and high resolution - any fan's dream. They're so beautiful. *_* I may have just gotten myself addicted.

It's not just the art, either. From what I've found of the story, it's quite complex and deep. Not that I'll be able to fully appreciate the deepness, but I like character development and original and interesting plotlines, which Angel Sanctuary seems to have. I'll be running searches for Angel Sanctuary manga scans and summaries. ^_^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

12:36 p.m.

Huge Angel Sanctuary pictures. I'm not a fan of the series, but the art is beautiful.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

06:53 p.m.

The scene: a grassy field on a warm spring day, the set of some insane movie. Butterflies dance among the ragweed. Somewhere in the background, a crewman sneezes.

Esther-chan appears on the scene, carrying a wooden crate. She unceremoniously drops it down on the tall grass and climbs up on it. Shoujo Sparkly Bubbles© appear as Esther-chan proceeds to sing, very loudly.

Esther-chan: "Erin and Kathleen are going to Katsu, Erin and Kathleen are going to Katsu, Erin and Kathleen are going to Katsu!!"

^_______________________________^ In case you hadn't guessed, Erin and Kathleen are going to Katsu. And I'm celebrating. ^.^

peat moss? 4 nosebleeds

11:08 p.m.

Grrr... the moment I need to give you a message, Erin, you're gone. Dammit. Oh well. In the event that you happen to read this before you take off... "I'm giving Kathleen the money tomorrow. $52 - one fifty and two ones, wrapped in a sheet of notebook paper in a white envelope."

peat moss? one nosebleed

07:32 p.m.

I have:

1. Made up the shopping list for Katsu.
   
2. Gotten money together.
   
3. Wrote notes.
   
4. Burned Kathryn her CD.

>_< Now comes the hard part. Working and studying. >_<

peat moss? one nosebleed

02:51 p.m.

Spent the day in a Yami no Matsuei dream. ^________^ Towards the end it started turning into Gundam Wing, but that's okay. ^_^

I have to:

1. Do physics.
   
2. Study for Calc.
   
3. Make up shopping list for Katsu.
   
4. Get money together.
   
5. Write a few notes.
   
6. Burn Kathryn her CD.

I hope I don't explode. o_O;;;;;;;

peat moss? no nosebleeds

08:07 p.m.

*bwahaha!* I thought vol. 4 of Yami no Matsuei was funny... but the first part of the first part of vol. 5 is absolutely HILARIOUS!!! Muraki wants to marry Tsuzuki! XD

peat moss? one nosebleed

07:09 p.m.

I've been wondering about myself... all this YnM has made me think about emotions. Hisoka's empathy, Tsuzuki + Hisoka, general sap...

I've decided that I don't like movies. Movies, music, and even books... it's like a bizarre kind of emotional crutch for me. Movies, especially... they always affect my mood and emotions. It's like water that pours in to fill a gap inside, and I end up carrying that mood and those emotions around for several days before they finally dissipate. It happens with books and music, too, but the effects last much shorter. Granted, I can feel things on my own, but those are always displaced by... well, whatever happens. I can't walk into a movie feeling one thing and leave with that same feeling. Gah... it's hard to describe, since I don't understand it very well. The best metaphor I can draw is this: it's like what happens when Tsuzuki puts a hand on Hisoka's arm in the very beginning of the series. Anything that was in Hisoka's head before was completely overwhelmed by Tsuzuki's mind.

Anyway, despite what I said earlier about the gifty ficcy... I think I'm going to halt work on that. I can't write something about something I either can't or have yet to feel. Valentine's Day doesn't make me feel anything other than happy for all the couples and satisfied with my own single status. I just can't force myself to write crap. I can't force myself to write, period. Grr.

Oh, yeah... today's Chinese New Year. >_< I need money, dangit.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

06:29 p.m.

Continuing the current rash of entries about Yami no Matsuei... in episode 12 (my favorite so far... so pretty...) when Suzaku speaks... she? sounds like G-Wing's Quatre and Gravi's Seguchi Touma... are the voice actors the same? @_@

peat moss? no nosebleeds

05:35 p.m.

Wow... the Yami no Matsuei manga is... a lot more... er... well, if the anime is shounen-ai, then the manga is yaoi. >_>;; Or something like that.

But I really want to get vol. 3, now. One and two seem... kinda boring, but three is like, "Wow... even though these translations are a bit weird... it's still really cool!"

peat moss? no nosebleeds

09:28 a.m.

Kathryn, if you want episodes 1-2 and 10-13 of Yami no Matsuei, I can burn you a copy. I still have the files on my hard drive from when I burned a copy for Kathleen. Anything else you want on the disc? I can make it a music CD, if you like. "Eden", the opening song for YnM, is a really good song. ^_^

And Sasuga Books' website is down... @_@ "Sorry, the server is refusing connections right now. Try again later." I wanna browse for manga, dammit! >_< Erin put it nicely - I'm a manga addict. >_>;;;

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

10:45 p.m.

Episode twelve of Yami no Matsuei is so beautiful... I don't know why. The events are absolutely heartrending to all the Shinigami, what with Tsuzuki in that kind of mental pain, and Hisoka unable to save him, but I just find it so very pretty. I thought Suzaku's fire was beautiful, and even at the very end, with white feathers? falling, when Muraki's holding Tsuzuki... that was beautiful, too. So pretty... so very beautiful...

I've gained a new respect for Tatsumi-san and Watari-san... all of the Shinigami are really incredible.

"We're sheep who have tasted of blood. It didn't transform us into wolves, but we can never return to the flock."

peat moss? no nosebleeds

08:26 p.m.

Finished Yami no Matsuei episodes 10-13 about an hour and a half ago. They're very beautiful. From the six episodes I've seen, it's very well animated... *sigh* Pretty, pretty, pretty... so pretty... almost as pretty as Muraki, Tsuzuki, Hisoka, Watari, and Tatsumi. ^_^

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

05:11 p.m.

I'm wondering if Oriya from the Yami no Matsuei anime has the same voice actor as Yuki Eiri from Gravitation. They sound very similar.

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

10:07 a.m.

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Sorry, just had to get that out of my system. Blog, damn you!

peat moss? no nosebleeds

10:05 a.m.

Blogstickers! I think I'm going to make some of my own. ^o^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

05:25 p.m.

I'm writing a gifty fic. I don't write well to begin with, and I don't like writing, but I'm determined to write this. Valentine's Day is on Thursday. That means I have to write fast. >.< Kore o arawashite yo!

peat moss? no nosebleeds

11:30 a.m.

We watched the movie Rush Hour at Anime Night. I didn't see the whole thing 'cause I had to leave, but it looked good from what I saw. The opening, where they're in Hong Kong? I knew enough Cantonese and Mandarin to realize that the subtitles were a bit inaccurate.

The part where the bleach-blondie says, "Shoot me," according to the subtitles? Well, I heard, "Open the window." I asked my mum about it. She laughed and said that it could have meant that. "Window" and "gun" in Cantonese have the same sound, and "to shoot a gun" is literally tranlated as "to release the gun". I think it has to do with the tonal qualities of Cantonese. >_<

Also, where Jackie Chan is talking to the little girl just before she goes off to America? The subtitles where she says that she won't have any friends in the U.S. is fairly good, but where Jackie says, "Everything will be O.K." is not. What he really said was something along the lines of "You'll make friends," or "You'll have plenty of friends." I don't remember exactly. >_< Sorry.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

12:31 a.m.

Yes, I talk about Erin a lot. She's the first and only friend that I have who I admire/look-up-to as much as I like. So there. *be-daaaaaa!*

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

12:25 a.m.

I wonder if I somehow offended Erin. o_O;;;;

peat moss? one nosebleed

11:47 p.m.

I don't have anything to say. Rather, I have a bunch of feelings, but I have no way to express them. o_O; Someone save me from the prison that is myself.

peat moss? one nosebleed

12:00 a.m.

I'm wondering if Kathleen made an insightful point today during Anime Night. I mentioned that I had no interest in romantic relationships. Not in guys, not in girls, not in anyone. I don't remember her exact words, which is a pity, but she said something to the effect of, "Once you find your intellectual equal, you'll be interested." I'm wondering if she's right.

On a more... genki! note, I've begun brainstorming on a new blog layout... it's kinda complicated. It's tentatively titled "Meiji Carrousel", and it should feature Himura Kenshin, Kamiya Kaoru, Sagara Sanosuke, Myoujin Yahiko, Makimachi Misao, Shinomori Aoshi, and Saitou Hajime from Rurouni Kenshin. I plan to have a different character for each day of the week on the main page. ^.^ Greymatter's cool like that. You can do things like this. ^_^

I dug out my first episodes of Kenshin. *Misao-chan!* Aoshi-samaaaaaaaaaaaa! *_* I want the manga! ^o^ I'm beginning to think that I like the manga better than the anime... o_O;; I like the voice actors, though. ^_^ *Sou-chan!* ^_^ ^_^ ^_^

peat moss? 6 nosebleeds

10:19 p.m.

A girl is hitting on me. She got my email through a fan fic I wrote, and now she IMs me whenever she gets on. She wants to know my age and sex. She's 15, and seems quite eager to prove it. >_>

I'm not sure what she wants from me. I'm wigged out, but I'm also laughing my head off. She's kinda... well, it's like she's... yeah... flirting... or trying to... get me interested... er... >_>;;;;;;;;;;;;;

I've decided to play along. She wants a game... I'll humor her. XD

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

05:48 p.m.

Cleaned up my email account... I am now using 3% of my space. I'm very tired. I think it's swimming's fault. But I got a confirmation mail from Sasuga. The HanaKimi has to be backordered, though. >_< I dun wanna wait!

peat moss? no nosebleeds

11:04 p.m.

Frankly, I don't think I can do the Army ROTC. You have to basically have no qualms about killing someone in the defense of your country. It's a requirement.

Give me the training, the equipment, and the information, and I can kill someone. It'll be done neatly and efficiently. That's not the problem.

Sure, I can kill someone. But I'd feel terribly guilty about it. The guilt would wear off in a few days, but it'd leave a mark on my soul. The guilt from each killing afterwards would take longer and longer to wear off, and I'd be hurt inside more and more. Eventually there'd be a point where I wouldn't exist as a human being anymore, because the guilt would kill my soul. I'd have to become a machine in order to keep the pretense of being normal - in short, in order to keep my physical body alive and my mind intact, I'd destroy my soul.

(A side note - I think that a human being consists of three parts: the body, the mind, and the soul. Your body is your physical self. Your mind is your rational self, your factual self. Your soul is the spirit, the beliefs, the core of who you are. Your personality is a combination of your mind and soul.)

Right now, I can sort of suspend the so-called "human" part of me for a period of time - in essence, I can stop "being alive." When that happens, morals, ethics, laws - they all cease to mean anything to me. All that matters is the completion of the task(s) at hand. If men, women, and children stand in my way, well, too damn bad. Either help me or get the hell out of my way. I could kill anyone in that mode. All that matters is that "ninmu kanryou." That kind of machine mode only occurs when I'm under stress or withdraw to protect myself from a perceived threat or harm - it's my survival mode.

Eventually, I "wake up" and start living again. Usually after a night's sleep. ^_^ But God... I can't imagine being "dead" permanently. I've been told that I'm not terribly pleasant when I'm in the land of the dead. I've been told that I basically... I basically am cold and uncaring, completely disregarding all human emotion - a machine. I think Frite knows something about this part of me... I'm so sorry.

I forget why I started this whole discourse to begin with. Oh, the ROTC. ^_^ But in a way, I guess that in telling all this, I was also hoping for absolution of some sort. I don't know... in some way, I guess I'm seeking forgiveness for something I'm not sure I did. Or maybe I'm seeking forgiveness for who I am. Gah... I don't know anymore. I don't even know who I want forgiveness from - God? My friends? Humanity, in general?

I dunno. I'm gonna go sleepy-sleepy right now, and when I wake up in the morning, I'll be alright. ^_^

peat moss? 4 nosebleeds

10:25 p.m.

The Air Force has a nasty recruiting website. Nearly crashed IE on my computer because my modem is a 56k and they were trying to stream this huge music file... >_< My whole system slowed down, if that means anything to you. Besides that, it didn't really tell me much. @_@ What a waste.

No, I'm not cranky. >_>

peat moss? no nosebleeds

07:43 p.m.

The more I talk to the people I know, the more I realize that we all live either in our own private nightmares or in the shadow of them. I mean, we all look normal, but we've all had our share of troubles, both external and internal, in the past. And some of us are still going through it now.

I wonder if that's what drew us all together.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

03:47 p.m.

Erin has a new blog layout. Go stare and marvel at its awesome-ness. ^_^

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

07:36 p.m.

Erin got the confirmation email not too long ago... so that means that the Sunday night order was botched, and the one just now went through. Wai! Ten volumes of Hanazakari no Kimitachi E, $4.80 each. ^__________^

I'll feel very guilty about this all tonight, and then I'll go to bed, and when I wake up tomorrow morning, I'll be right as rain. ^_^

Dammit, it's manga! How can you not like manga?!?

Uh-oh. O.O;;; I just thought of something... where the heck am I going to store this all? o_o;;; Not that I'm complaining, mind you, just that... I'm already storing Kenshin in the cardboard box it came in... >_> Where the heck am I gonna put this?

Ah well, minor issue. ^______^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

06:56 p.m.

Okay... so about this manga order I've been going on about? I think I have it resolved, thanks to a good dose of Erin. Ah, God, I'm so pathetic.

Anyway... remember the 20% off thingy? Sasuga sells a partial set of HanaKimi manga - the first ten volumes - for $60. With the discount, that comes out to $4.80 a volume - really, really cheap. To cut a long, involved, neurotic, and otherwise pointless story short, I bought it.

So basically, I might have double-ordered the first two volumes of HanaKimi. If I did, well, Erin says she'll buy it off me. So that's taken care of.

I'm thinking that I didn't actually double-order, though. I think the order on Sunday night was botched, because weird things happened throughout the order process (don't ask >_>), there was no swimming fishy .gif at the end (don't ask about that either >_>), and there's been no confirmation email.

So I really am a neurotic web server. 404 me.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

06:48 p.m.

In reality, I'm a neurotic web server, prone to fits of mania and then fits of depression. Don't mind me. ^.^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

02:56 p.m.

Grrr... I need confirmation from Sasuga that my order went through... grr... demmit, hurry up! *impatient* Apparently, since the Patriots won the Super Bowl, they're giving 20% discounts on all items ordered online through today. So if it didn't go through, I want to know, so I can re-do the order. Yes, I'm a cheapskate. ^____^

Had a session of my compute engineering apprenticeship today... robotics lab. *_* I like. I like much. Robots... weeeeeeeeeee! *coughs* Sorry.

I need to finish my homework. ^.^

peat moss? no nosebleeds

10:49 p.m.

"But don't you understand? In the end, he had to die, because he was the hero of the story. All the heroes die in the end. It wouldn't be a good story if that didn't happen."

All the stories with so much symbolism... they're quite trite. Life isn't symbolic. It just happens; it's chaotic. Symbols are too neat, too organized to be truly organic. I think it's come to the point where it's like, "Yes, I can see how this symbolizes that, but what does it mean?"

Most of it's a load of crap, anyway. I don't think writers sit down and organize a story by its symbols.

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

04:21 p.m.

It makes sense! It's like, "Why didn't any one explain it this way before?" I get it now! ^________^ *excitedly jumps around* I see the light!

No, seriously. You have no idea how confused I was, and then it's like, "Ohmigod, I understand it now!" O_O; Wow. I'm like, stunned. It makes sense!

Now, if I can remember it all... -_-

peat moss? 4 nosebleeds

08:47 p.m.

Bought the first two volumes of Yami no Matsuei and Hanazakari no Kimitachi E. Thank you, Erin! ^____^

"Iz all guud." -- Erin

peat moss? one nosebleed

05:56 p.m.

Weeeeeeeeeee... Saiyuki, Yami no Matsuei, and Hanazakari no Kimitachi E manga! Sasuga carries all three. ^_______^ Yami no Matsuei and HanaKimi are both $6.25 a volume, which is pretty cheap. Saiyuki is $12.15, though... on the pricey side.

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

11:55 a.m.

Wow... Erin... x_X... wow... uh... wow... er?

If I do anything, I'll let you know, and I'll send the money up with Kathleen when she goes to Katsu.

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

11:13 a.m.

Wow... lots of places out on the Internet carry pencilboards for less than $5... wow.

I need to make up a list and dig out some money to give to Kathleen so she can buy stuff for me at KatsuCon. I wanna go, demmit! >_<

peat moss? no nosebleeds

12:19 p.m.

The antihistamine haze is beginning to clear, but I still feel... iffy.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

09:54 a.m.

@_@;;;;; I took the antihistamine the doctor prescribed me before I left the house this morning... I'm thinking it was a bad idea. I'm woozy right now... can't think straight. I'm surprised I'm not swaying and staggering. I think I'm high. >_>

Report card day. All A's. ^__^ In AP Calc: "Grade is in the plus range." How the heck did that happen? I had a frickin' 89.5% for the semester. Oh well. I'm not complaining, just wondering how it happened.

Oh, boy... I think I'm definitely high. @_@

peat moss? 2 nosebleeds

10:27 p.m.

The comments pages now match the new layout. ^______^ It was a bit harder this time in deciding where to put the little boxes and stuff, but I think this'll do.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

08:01 p.m.

I wanted to change the layout, so I did. ^_^ I like the scrollbar on the left thingy. Coolz. ^_^

In the process of converting the comments system to the new layout... for right now, the old one still works.

peat moss? no nosebleeds

04:27 p.m.

Volumes 9 and 11. ^__^

peat moss? 3 nosebleeds

04:23 p.m.

The last two volumes of my Gravi manga came today... and once again, they me-proofed the package.

peat moss? one nosebleed