I have so much work this weekend... which is why I'm listening to old Madonna singles on Youtube - tropical the island breeze, all of nature wild and free, this is where I long to be, la isla bonita; take a bow, the night is over, this masquerade is getting older - and playing Spider Solitaire. Whoopee. I feel sick thinking about how much work there is.
I always think of myself as a homebody - the perfect weekend is one where I don't have to leave the house. That being said, I think I have a bit of wanderlust. There are lots of places I want to go and see, maybe even live, to see what it's like. Not sure how I'm going to reconcile this with being a doctor.
The seashore's very beautiful, aside from the very distinct possibility of getting sunburnt worse than I ever have been before, but what I can't get over is the stench. I know some people love the smell of the ocean, but it actually kinda makes me sick to the stomach.
It's something I should really remind myself of, but every now and then I really understand why people commit suicide or take up unhealthy habits like cutting themselves. I guess it's easy to write these things off as "ooh, laugh at the emo kid!" but as I see it, there's no reason to trvialize someone's very real mental or emotional pain.
Good, long guitar practice sessions with the TV are pretty good for relieving stress.
So, two Saturdays ago I got the Panic Channel stuff that I ordered. Did I mention that? Yes, my blog tells me I did. Good.
I'm swamped with work this week, but I got out of work early today due to bizarre technical malfunctions (The HPLC was working last Friday when I used it. Between then and now it broke... in multiple places.) so I went to Duane Reade and bought some food and an earwax. Thanks to that, I ate a tasty Indian dinner and cleaned out my ears. I think I still might have some wax in the left ear, but I managed to extract two pieces of earwax from my right that were like over half-an-inch long combined. Seriously. (It's been like two years since I cleaned my ears. Or maybe only one.)
Ben came up to visit for the weekend. I was very happy to see him, but that was somewhat tempered by me spending like ten hours on the Teach for America application. Ben's mom thinks I'm crazy to do all this crap, according to my mum.
Got waitlisted at NYU, as expected, but the catch is that I have to contact them within two weeks to let them know if I want to stay on the waitlist. Hell yeah! Also, got rejected from Cornell, which is totally okay. Oh, and I was uber-waitlisted at GWU after being put on hold for five months. They were too pansy to reject me outright, so They might interview me in late-late-spring. Might as well work on on buttering them up, too.
I also passed my Kaplan interview (I kicked ass, IMNSHO). Thursday's the interview... hoo-boy. Busy-busy-busy. That's also the day of my mock interview, and I have a quiz in Chinese tomorrow and a quiz in Biophysical next Tuesday.
I'm so busy nowadays that I don't have the time for the creative endeavors that I'd like to have. I'm getting all excited about designing the flyer for my February program. That's how bad it is. Anywa, I guess I should work on getting better at the guitar.
I can think of a billion things I'd rather do than study chemistry, which is what I should be doing right now... but since I'm procrastinating, I can only waste my time on teh Intarnets.
A week or two ago I signed up for this Japanese shopping service, and on Friday I paid just under $60 for three CD+DVD sets and a mini-album+goodies by Panic Channel. Damn good deal, I think, considering that the price included auction fees, airmail shipping, and service charge. If my CDs get here in good shape, then I will definitely buy again using this service. Unfortunetly, the three CD+DVD sets I bought plus another CD+DVD set got put up on Yahoo!Auctions Japan with LOTS of extras, but there's no way I'm buying three CDs again just for 5 signed photos plus a video. Well, if it was cheap I would consider it because I think I can resell the stuff I'd already have, but I think with fees and shipping it'd be close to $100, which is way more than I could recoup. So poo.
Everyone I've talked to about getting waitlisted (including two med school students) is like, "Congrats on getting waitlisted! You'll probably get in!" While I really appreciate the support, I'm reminded of the General Patton quote in Dan's facebook - "If everyone is thinking and everyone is coming up with the same answer, then someone isn't thinking." I guess, though, that there's no actual thinking involved here. It's knowing. Or whatever.
I just really want to get into Pitt. I wonder if I should tell them that if they admit, I'll 100% come. I'm leaning towards saying that, because at this point the only other possible choices I'd have are NYU and Mt. Sinai.
For dinner I had half the rest of the package of sugar snap peas, unseasoned because they're nice like that, and a Stouffers chicken pot pie. The pie looked really small when I started eating, but right now I'm really full. o___o; Yay, protein mebbe?
The grapevine tells me that Dan's major angsty now about stuff. Just thought I'd put that out there.
So, I got waitlisted at Pitt. A big ole "POOOOOOOOOO!!" covers some of my feelings about it.
After several pep-talks with my mum (the older I get, the more I love her) I feel somewhat better. I've resolved to begin a serious campaign to get myself OFF the waitlist - I get this weekend to feel down in the dumps, and then I have to start working. So far, my plan entails a pre-med advising meeting for more advice, talking to Ben's mom to see if she can help me, a call to the school to see if I can find out my position on the waitlist, and an update letter to the school every 4-6 weeks. They won't start admitting from the waitlist until May, but I'm sure I can seriously boost my chances in the four months until then.
I just wonder what wasn't good enough about my application. I hope it's not my age - compared to the average age of admitted students, I'm a friggin' pee-wee.
Also in the medical schools woes category, I still haven't heard anything from NYU, so I'm guessing I got waitlisted/rejected there, too. Honestly, I'm pretty damn scared - I feel like there might be a systematic weakness in my application, and I'm praying it's not my interviewing skills. Before my Mt. Sinai interview, I've got to get a mock interview at the career center nailed down.
I also finished Sanitarium today. It's a decent story - no Matrix here, but the way it was told was pretty interesting. Also pretty disturbing, too. Let that be a lesson to you, game designers - "bad graphics" can still set great atmosphere!
I need to figure out a way to get more protein into my diet. Lately, I feel like I'm craving meat all the time.