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08/10/2003 Archived Entry: "cultivate your hunger, for you idealize. motivate your anger, make them all realize. climbing the mountain, never coming down."
Whenever something tremendously good happens something tremendously bad happens afterwards. I've learned to hold onto the good as tightly as possible so I keep standing.
Two of my former mentors are going to be moving to Denver. They were parental figures to me for a long time and have been a definite shaping factor of who I am today. They'll both be disappointed that I've turned from the Christian church. Not God, no. I could never turn my back on whatever Deities are out there. That's like plugging your ears and closing your eyes and humming and pretending that something doesn't exist when really it's standing right in front of you giving you a 'you're being a real idiot you know that?' look. But I'm turning from the church myself. I have been of the belief for a long time that if something is so true it will prove itself. There is alot about Christian doctrine that's proved itself correct. But there is alot that has proved itself wrong to me. I can't in good concience follow it anymore. Not to even pile onto the mound of grieviences I have against the church this whole gay bishop thing. I used to belong to an Episcopal church myself. My problem with the whole issue? They're one of the conservative ones. The entire dioscese is conservative in fact. My father? Stanch conservative. My mother's a liberal though =) But my father talks more. *laughs*
Either way, unlike some who would believe that I'm turning from the path of truth, I know in my heart I'm just continuing on. I'm determined to find the truth of who I am. Of my place in the world. Of what the world really is. Besides, as Dan said once "Success is the best revenge"
Parts of a church also depend on an area. The Episcopal church here is much more split on the bishop thing than yours. Honestly. http://www.st-margarets.org/ THe link to one of the oldest Episcopal churches...and all that stuff. They tend to sponsor strange things, like Rock the field (a group of bands playing on their field...of which most are athiest/agnostic or Jewish *snicker*)