Archived Weblog Entry - 11/10/2002: "VA and ranting."

[Previous entry: "nemunemunanoda"] [Main Index] [Next entry: "Weiss2 rant"]

11/10/2002 Archived Entry: "VA and ranting."

wooo! sarah and I went down to VA for the weekend. it was fun, though slightly uneventful. I played with her little nephews alot. They're both so adorable though sarah has to stop teaching the kid things like "whatever" and "damnit" >_>;; .....*sigh* two (three?) year olds shouldn't know things like "shutup". At least they're adorable. I love kids.

I got to watch movies from my childhood. it was so sweet, like Aladdin, and Beauty and the Beast, and ET. I realized how broadway musical-like Beauty and the Beast was. I mean it's like "we're having dinner! let's sing about it!" and then "oooh now we're going to kill the beast! let's sing and dance!". At least it's cute. ^_^ *hums Be Our Guest*

I am so socially neurotic >_< I have lost so much of the confidence I once had. I knew I didn't interact with people...but I didn't think it was because I had become so nervous around them. why couldn't I have gone to one of those 'accepting' type schools. Supposedly the ones where people are different and accept people who are. Instead I ended up in hicksville USA that imports a bunch of white upper middleclass conformists for the campus. I mean there are cool people who are white upper middle class, but damnit, these people aren't. Bah I need to get over myself and just gain some confidence. Stop my ranting and just grow up or something. There are people who care about me and accept me for who I am. It's just the masses that I react to differently....I never even knew I was scared of them. I realized that this weekend when I met some of sarah's friends. I knew they were the accepting types, I knew that I wouldn't have had a problem of 'fitting in', but even still I felt nervous and didn't talk much.

I'm so neurotic. >_< bah. Maybe I've always been and it just didn't fall into place in high school. possibly.

I need to stop ranting. >_< ranting is bad. ranting just makes me want to do more ranting and then have a nasty negative outlook on everything. I need to be grateful for what I have for the here and now ^_^ *nod nods* Here and now is a good time. a definetly good time definetly definetly a good time. definetly.

Sunday, November 10, 2002
Children shouldn't know the swear words until they're past primary school, and they shouldn't use them 'til they're in seventh grade, at least. @_@;;

ET gives me the creeps. I hate it.

We can be neurotic together. ^.^ But geez... you sound so bitter. I think you do too much navel-gazing. There's more to life than "my imperfections." I wouldn't like you if you were perfect. In fact, I'd probably find you annoying. :D

And I like to rant as much as you do... maybe about shallower subjects *music, pretty boys >_>;;;, etc* but it's ranting nonetheless. :P

08:23 PM: shades_children site!

Monday, November 11, 2002
you know there are always people at home who will always be excepting of you ^^
06:26 AM: mail! kat site!

Monday, November 11, 2002
an accepting high school has nothing to do with it...it's what you did in high school. I hung out with alot of people who were geeks, but good anime/band/scifi geeks. Usually the outcasts of any group, but together we became...AN UNSTOPPABLE GROUP OF geeks with people with tempers or too passive. guess what I did in the group most often...smoothed over things between either others, or between themselves. We were still outcasts, but since our school was pretty unclicky (it's hard to be clicky when the school population, altough not incredibly transient, was still somewhat transient and alot of people you knew/were friends with all had lived somewhere else at soem point in their life) most people didn't mind us. Infact, I was ok friends with our class president (Belen was so nice (the accent is over the second e) and her cousin Jessie was even nicer...both their mothers were spanish twins and married 2 brothers) and I was aquaintences with some of the school, even though I was in a group of basically non-normal people. I think alot of it was the fact that some of the nicest and smartest people were not traditional, Belen had a spanish mother, Kiril was Bulgarian, Farzin was Iranian, and we had a few exchange students every year. *shrugs* Where you go to high school has nothign to do with it, alot of it is what the parents taught the kids and who they hang out with. The less the enviroment restricts travel, the more diverse a population you have. And the more diverse the ideas.

Mind you, sometimes it's just stupidity. And stupid people have more children than smart people. That's why you get people like my roommates father asking "Do you have to pay to park in DC?" and why she can't seem to do even remedial math.(She just found out that her math class currently counts towards nothing. She was having trouble in Math 3. )
ARRG!! Now I'm raniting in your Journal. Sorry. I have to stop doing this. Really. I have huge rants in my journals and now I'm raniting in your journal. I already did this to Crystal's journal the other day. Now I'm ranting that I rant too much.

I'm not touching the keyboard anymore. Bad keyboard. I blame it on only having the computer to talk to during the evenings.

10:41 PM: liz

Monday, November 11, 2002
ranting is ok here. ^_^ it's not like I don't do it enough. feel free to rant.
11:25 PM: Animelily